TRUTH OR LIE : somethings that you may don't know

All the things are real and based on a true life story. This story contains some sensitive parts . And the characters are in real . If some of your name as are mentioned them , I am sorry for that .
Thank you - himeshroy

At first I would like to thank my mother and father. For them now I am here and what ever I has seen that's all for them only . Thank you Ma and Baba .

PART: ONE 

Life ! Every one has there own life with own problems but the solution may be from others or there own. I have also some problems in my life but till now ( 23/08/2023) I didn't got my solution. Today's date is quite good know date 23 and year 23 . Yes, and today is also a great achievement for India to land chandrayan 3 successful on the south pole of moon and the 1st country to land on the south pole of moon 🌝 . Ok , Chanda mama avi dur ke nahi , pass ke ho gaya hai. Let's come to my life . 

Hello! I am Himesh Roy from a small village name Dwarikamari, but not actually in Dwarikamari beside that, then also we write in our address our village name is Dwarikamari. My full address is Vil- Dwarikamari, PO - Tekatuli , PS - Maynaguri , Dist - Jalpaiguri, State - West Bengal, and finally India . What a long address know 😃. I had born on 6th January 2007 in Jalpaiguri hospital. After my birth only I had fever and from that time to till now I am suffering from many diseases . Now I has migraine problem and specially HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE at this age and it's extremely high . So , When I was a small kid I sences my first feeling of love in class 3 yeah but with whom you know . It was an electrican . Hmm , that time I feel that I has interest in boys but . I like him because he look like a Bengali actor name Jeet , I like Jeet because of his nose . Yeah nose . My sisters knew that I like him means the electrican . Because in my childhood I spent my days with my all sisters only . My brothers were all busy , you know man are the busiest person. Why did I said this you will come to know after a long time . Btw that is my present time . And my sisters told him and he just smiled. Actually at that time electric work was going on our village because we didn't had electricity before. Yes , I also read in the lantern. How amazing know . So I use to give him water daily and look him from rooms window. The electric work was done and he went from that time I had not seen him . 

After him here comes my school van driver, yeah I like him because of his beard . And my school friend also knew that I liked him . One day they told him that I told to not cut the beard he looks good in that . He gave no reaction. I was in Morning Star school , Maynaguri till the half season of class 4 . They called me ' durbol setu ' means week . Yeah I was so week at that time I was of 25kg , if anyone would push me I fall down . I can't control myself, what can I do .

After that class 4 my life had new turning. Did you watched the movie Tare Zamee Par , I had watched it before going to hostel . Where my whole life and I changes. I want hostel in the year 2016 in mid of June . I had my addmission test in January. So between June to January what did I did . Let's see I was from Bengali medium and I was going to take admission in an English medium school. So I was being prepared for that . In hostel every one called me ladies . But when I danced one day they started calling Chamu and chamiya. Till now some calls Chamiya , I don't care about that . There were some seniors who called be bunu . I had many new friends and brothers in hostel. But then also I felt alone and missed my home . At first I didn't cried at all like how some cry on there first day . But , when I had fever and I went home then I came back. From that time I started crying. Oh I forgot I want to thanks a lot to my father's friend means my uncle for whom I went to hostel. Thankyou uncle and thank to yours sons also for taking care of me . Yeah uncle had 3 sons and 2 of them were also in the same hostel. One day I was counting 1 2 3 and instead of six I told sex there was one brother he was shocked and told me what did I say . I replied him that sex . At that time I didn't knew the meaning of sex also and what was that . One day I saw that seniors were beating the juniors so much with belt with out any reason and I saw ragging for the first time . I was so much scared. And one think there was a lot of confusion that what I was Nepali or Bengali. Na , I was Bengali. And some sister came and talked with me in Nepali on my first day and I didn't get that language. But now I can understand and speak also . We had separate hostel boys and girls but we used to had our food together. I also remember now that the senior brothers used to call the warden of the girl's hostel Kaliakotea , as she was black. That type of nonsense was that we are human we can have any colour of our body. And my uncle son he took my care so nicely. Do you know that they did means the bigger son . His two friends and he was there in hostel that day , they didn't went to school. I was also alone they came to my room means in junior room . They were talking with me and after that two of them caught my hand and one layed over me and he was feeling me horny by kissing in my neck. But I didn't I run away from there and went near the aunties . Ok , then one day I was playing cricket with Pritam Da and I was balling. The way he strikes the ball it came directly to me and hit on my chest. I felt down there only . That was a horrible scene. The same he did but that was different , I will tell you about that day but not now after this . My result of admission test came and Raju sir told that I was fail , I was crying. Then Naresh Sir came he has left that hostel at that time, I don't know why . He came and told me that I am passed , at that moment I was so happy . After few day my father came for my addmission. I had heard that Naresh Sir was opening PG in his home and I told to my father . We went to sir's home and he talked to him . Then I went home I had 2 or 3 months vacation. I changed my hostel and I came to my new hostel that was run by Naresh Sir before 2 days of re-opening of school after vacation . I went to school after 5 days . I took admission in class 5 and my section was A ( Ganga ) . When I came to hostel at the first day an unexpected thing occurred. I had never thought that he would come to this hostel. My friend Himanshu, and also with his brother , what a surprise. Then many people came from that hostel to this. Ok that's great. But , the real story starts from here in Neha sweet home. 

PART : TWO

Neha sweet home yeah now I fell that it was sweet. Few months of opening it was running smoothly but after that you know how a hostel is . 

DISCLAIMER : SENSITIVE AND NON-FICTION

Let's show you some interesting parts of my life somethings that you may don't know . When I was in class 6 I did sex for the first time. But how ? umm how . In hostel we had only one bathroom so we had to went two by two for bath . On that day I was late to take bath so I had to went with senior Pritam Da . I was just taking bath but the way he was looking at me . I understood his intention and suddenly he pulled my pant and I said him what are you doing. Then I went from bathroom after my bath. On the same day he came to my bed at night. I never thought that this things would happen and I would be doing this . He came and he put his leg in my body then he slowly slowly he took steps and he kissed in my neck . My main problem is my neck I can't control myself when someone kisses in neck. From that day I and Pritam Da started doing sex . We did 4 or 5 day in a week . Every thing was going smoothly between him and me . Oh I was going to tell you know that what he has done . Again we were playing cricket and I was balling that time also . Then he hit the ball and it directly came to me and hit on my lower part. I was gone at that time , it was paining to much that I can't express. And that day some guest has came to hostel means sir's guests. Pritam Da was one who teach me how to watch porn . Actually , one thing you know that we know all things but be don't show it or do it . Every day we use to go to bathroom together. One day I didn't gave him permission to do sex so he push me in the bathroom and I felt down there and I was having so much of suffocation at that time . Every one heard my screaming at that time . And they were in kitchen taking lunch. Why , if I do sex then it's ok and if I don't then I it's wrong. That's my choice when I will do and when not . Please do with any like that or don't give anyone to do the same with you . From that time I didn't talk with him for so many day . But slowly the matter was settle down and he did again. But this it is other , we did romence more then sex . In winter we used to sit together under one blank and watch TV at that time we used to play with our fingers. 

I forgot to tell one day when I went to home in vacation then my sister started going to school . Yes , I have a sister. When I was in class 2 I wished god ma kali that I want a sister and see now she has came . Till now I remember when she started first walking. One day when I came from school my mother was cleaning the house means . She was taking out the old and waste things from room and there was a mug thrown. And she was coming to pickup the mug and then at that time she stepped her first step alone. I went to her if she didn't fall down . Ok that's all . When I went home from vacation then I saw the car by which she goes to school the same drive was there and at that time he has cut off this beard . He was looking good . Due to my sister I didn't celebrate my 2014 birthday because my mother was in hospital and I was alone in home with my sisters. My sister's birthday is next to my birthday so till 2017 we had 2 days celebration in our home . 

One day Ayan Da came to know about me and Pritam Da . He told me that if I don't do with him then he would tell to sir and ma'am but there a climax after few year that I will let you know later. So, I had to do with him force fully . No option was leftover me . 

Do your dream that you dreamed at night came true ? Yes , my dream came true and it gave me such a pain in last I don't know why it was attachment or just feelings . One day I dream that me and Ankit Da was not doing sex actually but romence. Yes , and that came true. All the senior and sir had went to Pritam Da new house. So , we juniors and ma'am , Neha were only in hostel. Ankit had went home so he didn't went with them . On that at evening he came from home . And when it was time for bed . Ankit Da called me for sleep because no one was there in his room.So , I went I had never thought that the night would be like that . And I was so happy. One by one they went from hostel . At first Pritam Da went to Kota after his board. Then next year ankit Da left the hostel after his half season of class 11 and that day I felt something worst. I don't know why . But Ayan Da didn't left . I told about Electrician and Driver to the senior and later sir ma'am came to know . I had a bad habit of tearing papers and when my bookshelf was check . They found so many papers. Due to my this habit I three time slap form ma'am and sir has beat me one time not due to this . Till then sir and ma'am never beat me again. But every one has got such a beating from sir . 

When I went to class 7 I was having crush on three people in school I used to stalk them every time . They were Aryan , Rajbir and Ayush from Pritam Da's batch. I was in A section at that time . The topper were in A , Avarage students were in B , below avarage were in C and below that were in D . I was in Blue house in class 7 and I had given name for mono-act in telnet contest from my house . But I didn't went for selection then Rajbir came and request me and he take out me by pulling my hand . And then I went happy happily with him . But after going some distance he left me and told to go to room no. S1 then he went somewhere else. When I went for selection and I rehersal that was my life worst moment . By the way I was not selected thank God. Few months gone then our final exam came in the month of March and corona also came . So didn't had our last 2 exams due to lockdown that was announced by our honourable prime minister . I went home in the next day . I had my first bus journey alone in class 7 in the month of November, Kali Puja's vacation. From Malbazar to Maynaguri. Ok , let come to lockdown down here lockdown started and my new stories also started .